Although this is not my first to celebrate Christmas without a guy, I admit that being loveless makes me feel, well - alone.
I assume you know what I mean by that word. The feeling of loneliness is no stranger to a typical and normal human being.
But then, why do I feel this way now? Why not last year when my ex-boyfriend and I just broke up or three years ago when my ex-fiancé left for the US? Is it because growing up will make you sensitive to feelings?
The fact of never having a guy every Christmas gave me the thought or maybe the fear of not having to honor holidays with a special person ever in my life. Somehow, I fear of celebrating the wonderful things in life alone.
When my friend and I had some chat and iced tea one afternoon, she shared that she wants to have a man this Christmas. That made me realize that I’m not the only one who wants someone for this time of the year.
How many people are feeling the same way like us? How many are out there who want someone to be there for them, to ease the fear of taking the course of life unaccompanied?
Some people are lucky if they have a cherished one this Christmas. If there is any secret in finding love in such an easy and successful way I want to know how.
Don’t get my entry wrong though. I’m not desperate – there’s still hope in me that maybe someday (next year, with a bit of luck!) I will spend Christmas with a person who will love me. But if it’s against God or fate’s will that I find happiness in a man, I only hope that I will find happiness through my friends.
Being loved and wanted by my friends makes me feel that I’m special. That special feeling may not be the same as that of how you feel in a relationship, but seeing the smiles on my friends’ faces when we’re together somehow makes me realize that in a way I’m not alone.
There are people who need me and who will need me. Otherwise, my schedule would not be filled with demands from people that I join them in their own definition of fun!
I assume you know what I mean by that word. The feeling of loneliness is no stranger to a typical and normal human being.
But then, why do I feel this way now? Why not last year when my ex-boyfriend and I just broke up or three years ago when my ex-fiancé left for the US? Is it because growing up will make you sensitive to feelings?
The fact of never having a guy every Christmas gave me the thought or maybe the fear of not having to honor holidays with a special person ever in my life. Somehow, I fear of celebrating the wonderful things in life alone.
When my friend and I had some chat and iced tea one afternoon, she shared that she wants to have a man this Christmas. That made me realize that I’m not the only one who wants someone for this time of the year.
How many people are feeling the same way like us? How many are out there who want someone to be there for them, to ease the fear of taking the course of life unaccompanied?
Some people are lucky if they have a cherished one this Christmas. If there is any secret in finding love in such an easy and successful way I want to know how.
Don’t get my entry wrong though. I’m not desperate – there’s still hope in me that maybe someday (next year, with a bit of luck!) I will spend Christmas with a person who will love me. But if it’s against God or fate’s will that I find happiness in a man, I only hope that I will find happiness through my friends.
Being loved and wanted by my friends makes me feel that I’m special. That special feeling may not be the same as that of how you feel in a relationship, but seeing the smiles on my friends’ faces when we’re together somehow makes me realize that in a way I’m not alone.
There are people who need me and who will need me. Otherwise, my schedule would not be filled with demands from people that I join them in their own definition of fun!
Being loveless does not necessarily mean that you’re lonely. So, for the millions of you who feel forlorn, there are many of us who feel the same thing. In a way you are with individuals who share the same feeling as you do. There are still many people who will make you laugh.
Have a blessed Christmas, everyone!
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